Angela’s Journey

In the past, I believed to be successful I had to work very hard to get ahead. To do so I was always busy, analyzed everything, often tried to make things go my way, and was always in a hurry. My life was exhausting, and most times overwhelming, but I thought I was doing what was necessary to achieve my dreams. My life looked great from the outside. I had my Master’s in Counseling Psychology, was working as a Mental Health Therapist, pursuing post graduate studies, and owned my own home.

Looking back, I realize how out of balance, unhealthy, and fear-driven my life was. It didn’t matter how hard I worked, how much I attempted to solve my problems by thinking my way to a solution, or how hard I pushed. Ultimately, I was not succeeding. It seems so clear now: I was dissatisfied, reactive, overweight, and disconnected from my feelings. I was so focused on my career, my social life had practically dried up.

My boyfriend and I broke up – there I was, depressed and crying all the time. I found myself reacting to my feelings and making myself feel even worse. I didn’t understand what was going on but I knew my suffering was out of proportion to the break up. I also knew there was no way I was going to stay in that awful emotional place.

As it happened, I had planned to go to the 2006 Portland Mind, Body, Spirit Expo that weekend. That morning, I had finalized the breakup. I just wanted to stay home and curl up in a ball. I had a gut feeling I needed to attend a particular seminar at the expo. The drive there left me anxious because I arrived a few minutes late but a sensation in my solar plexus felt like I was being pulled towards the room. I quietly went in, still unsure of what to expect.

Almost immediately after the presentation began I knew I needed to schedule a coaching appointment with the speaker. Never mind that she was a complete stranger to me – I knew I needed her help – it was totally intuitive, and ended up being totally right. I now know that my higher self, the wisest part of me, was looking out for me that day. I had an inner knowing and I followed it.

The next week, I had my first session with my new Transformational Life Coach, Kristy. After my session, the crying stopped and I felt like I had opened my eyes for the very first time. I felt I could breathe again. I knew I wasn’t “cured” or “transformed” at that point, but I was able to let go of my emotional pain and start looking at my life in a new way. Over time, I learned a great deal about myself. I learned I had a need to be in control which I fed by staying busy, allowing myself to be distracted from my feelings and feel safe. As each week passed, I continued my transformation.

• I became more calm, more grounded, less reactive, and more at peace with myself.
• I started recognizing my feelings and learned to process my emotions instead of stuffing them.
• I faced some bad financial investments I had made and restored my financial health.
• I realized I had been using my masculine side to live my life. I allowed my femininity to become more balanced with the masculine, stopped trying to get approval from others and became more authentic.
• I brought my life more into alignment with who I really am, living my truth, making wiser decisions for myself.
• I began to attract healthier relationships, and develop deeper, supportive friendships.
• I lost 50 pounds gained by protecting myself through stuffing my feelings with food that I never thought I could lose.
• My clarity, confidence and happiness grew and I started living an inspired, rather than a forced life.

Fast forward to October of 2009, my intuition guided me to move from the West Coast to just outside of NYC. I had always loved Oregon and had lived there all of my life. I never imagined moving out of state, let alone across the country. My ability to hear my intuition strengthened over those three years and my intuition was very specific in this case. I had sign after sign all pointing East. December, during a meditation, I got the message I was to move to New Jersey January 31st.

You can imagine my disbelief and the anxiety that followed as I wondered how I would leave all my friends and family. I didn’t know anything about the area except for a solo adventure trip I had taken to Manhattan 5 years earlier. I will admit, during some points I felt like I was going crazy. What the hell was I doing? Uprooting my entire life only to replant myself into the complete unknown. My mind was telling me one thing, my intuition another. I had my coach on the phone a few times over those weeks to help me work out the details and deal with my feelings.

Over the next two months I made the arrangements for my home and my belongings, rented an apartment sight unseen, packed up my two large dogs in my SUV and made the 5-day drive.

After settling in, I quickly began going to social networking groups, meeting a lot of people and learning the nuances between the west and east coasts. The inner promptings of my intuition had subsided and somehow I knew, even though I felt like a fish out of water, that I was exactly where I was suppose to be.

Today, I can say with confidence it was one of the best things I’ve ever done for myself.

I realize life is a journey and mine is far from over. But now that I have learned to process through my emotions and lead with my feminine essence, I find myself attracting more success with less effort than ever before. All that fear, anxiety and emotional pain I once tried resisting, I now allow it to flow through me and no longer hold me back.

My belief is everything happens for a reason, and even though I don’t always recognize the benefit in the moment, I have learned to trust, allow and be grateful.

I hope my story inspires you to take your own transformational journey. If and when you do, I’m here to coach you along the way.

Your Friend,

Angela
The Goddess Next Door